Inspiration or Repulsion?
I spent a lot of time this past week talking to friends, associates, therapists and spiritual counselors about the mission of Giggle On. In true Christa style, I also asked a lot of questions.
Does my site inspire or repel people? Is bringing awareness about depression and suicide on a site whose primary focus is to laugh in the face of life’s trials and stresses too polarizing? Is this whole concept too confusing?
Am I making people incredibly uncomfortable?
I knew this Giggle On! project would be challenging. References, direct or indirect, to depression or worse, the cultural taboo called suicide, would likely bring up fear, anxiety and emotional pain in my readers and in me. I am three months into this project and it is safe to say, I brought these issues to the surface. Mission Accomplished.
I also knew opening myself up, telling my story and hopefully, making people smile would act as a Bridge to Hope for those who may have lost their way. Based on some of the public and private comments from my readers, I think I’m on track. Thanks for the feedback!
Suicide and depression are the polar opposites of hope and laughter. Oil and vinegar are also opposites but when mixed together in the right combinations, and with a few key ingredients, one is able to create a delicious salad dressing.
Life is filled with opposites. It is our task as humans is to find equanimity in world where we often create imbalance and agitation within our own minds.
The comic and the tragic lie inseparable close, like light and shadow. – Socrates
WARNING – This site MAY make you uncomfortable
Some people who visit this site may stop by for 5 seconds, see the word “suicide” and then quickly hit the back button or close their browser entirely. This is understandable. Who wants to be uncomfortable? Avoiding pain is what we do.
Perhaps I should add a statement to the home page that reads: WARNING – This site might make you uncomfortable. Or WARNING – Christa might call you out on your own BS or your own pattern of denial.
Can we click our red heels like Dorothy did in the Wizard of Oz and transport ourselves to magical land of 100% happiness? *If you can do that, call me, we need to talk*
Distractions and Mind Numbing Substances
Will putting our fingers in our ears while making the *la la la la la* noise and *I can’t hear you* gesture stop the darker part of life from happening? How about putting your head in the sand like an ostrich? Or, how about trying to numb the pain and the emotional mess with drugs, alcohol or food?
The simple answer to these questions is “NO!” I tried all the methods listed above for MANY YEARS and they don’t work. The master plan of avoidance and denial, or being in a state of “unawareness” will not bring you any further down the path to true healing. Sorry to burst your bubble on that one folks, but it’s true. Personal growth requires you to be aware.
Put down the 6 pack of beer, the 5th of Jack Daniels, the bong and the candy bars. Step away from the distractions and the mind numbing substances. End the detour.
When we step out of our comfort zone, we grow. When we take our head out of the sand, we enter the zone called, Willingness to be Aware. I invite you to think about the “bad” stuff, put it in context, talk about it, resolve it and move on to the brighter side of life which is hope and laughter.
I don’t plan on dwelling in the pit of eternal despair and darkness here at Giggle On but the Giggle On message is also my story. I cannot hide from my past. Depression, desperation and suicidal tendencies are feelings I experienced and those feelings helped shape who I am today.
The past is gone (thankfully). I choose to focus on the positive, bring awareness to issues that need to be addressed and to encourage others to change their overall perspective from dark to light.
Who wants to join me on the positive train of hope? *I might even let you bring a small bag of Butterfingers, but only if you share*